You know when you are walking in a park alone and you looked back and wondered how long have you been walking?
hm. I loved walking and walking. Most of the time, alone and by myself. I like to think and look at things around me. Sometimes just felt so comfortable to be able to just listen to the voices in my head and seeing the things that God wants to tell me, through the happenings around me.
But I realized that sometimes, I walked without any direction and I will be clueless where I wanna go and end up that I spend such a long time walking and walking. In the end, my body will be physically tired and all I want to do is just rest.

That is what I think happened to me last year. Thinking back, no, I don't want to repeat the same thing. There need to be a direction to go and I want to walk into God's path that he has prepared for me. Maybe sometimes I will tend to go toward my ways which I think is right at that moment and it may seem exciting but, if it tires me physically and mentally, then I need to stop at the point and think. Stop walking aimlessly!
(the phelg me)

I believe that this year will be a new beginning to greater things that He has install for me. But, one thing is obedience. Without obedience, I guess that I will not be able to experience His promises fully. I know that God is so faithful in listening to my prayer but it's my own fear that says, "no, Alie. you are not good enough'. I really really need to get rid of that self. =(

Well, it brings such a pain in my brain when I am so in a dilemma to come out from my comfort zone. It's so scary!! and I end up going to bed so that I don't have to think about it or I will push it to somebody else.
Great. 'Alie, don't do this.Come on!! '

more construction need to be done in me. God, please help me.