Little Wonders

I spend my time quietly looking out the window as I stare at the moving trees, and looking up the beautiful evening sky. I asked my self, who am I ?
The question was stuck in my mind till I reached my destination. Do I have the answers yet?

I realized that I do. I think its just that I can't write them out in words. so how?
Words are so limited. I am a daydreamer. I rather have them in my brains floating around. ABC is not enough to describe who AM I. or. maybe my brains are too small. hmm...
so let me break them down.
A - Alison. The name which my parents gave me. I thought it was kinda weird when I was small but I really love my name now! and yea, its not Alice's Son or Ali's son. @@

B - bread. I love to eat bread. I can go to the bakery and eat a whole loaf of fresh baked bread by myself. Seriously. oh, the smell of freshly baked bread just tempts me! *dies

C - Colours. A world without colours is so boring. Thank God there are red, blue, green, orange and so many more. Thank God that its not only black and white. ( oh,just imagine that) My life is like a plain white clothe ready to be splashed with colourful colours to make it more interesting. =)
C - Creative. I like to be creative. To be out from the norm, to create something new.

D - Dog. I have a dog, named Toby. The dog which caused havoc in my house everyday. Its not that I don't love dogs, its just simply because they urinates everywhere. They thought they have maids to clean them. urgh.


E - English. The only language which I can honestly speak and write fluently,besides BM. Though I am born Chinese, maybe the Chinese blood didn't flow smoothly. it got stuck in the veins I think. Therefore, I am a banana. ( smiles shyly =p)

F - Flowers. Wished I could have a garden full of colourful flowers where bees could come to get their nectar and make honey. Imagine.
- Friends. They are the ones who adds the colours into my life. I really thank God for blessing me with great friends whom I can really lean on.
- Family. No one can ever replace family. The people whom I cherish forever. They are the ones who laugh with me and cries with me. And sometimes, they are also the one who caused it too. But still, no one can take away my love for them. <3>
- Food. Living in Malaysia, you can never stop eating. You can find me waking up just because I am finding for food. yum!

G - God. The top priority in my list. Without God, I won't be writing these down. You won't be reading these. I love Him. The one who carries me through the storm and never forsaken me.

( how am I getting to Z ? >< )

H - Happy. I am a happy person. Life is too short to not be happy. Sometimes I wished I will never grow up. Is it true that as you grow older, you are less happy? I hope not.
H - Heaven. The place where my Daddy has prepared a place for me. oh, can't wait to see it!

I - ice-cream! Mc -D, Haagen dazs, BR. The cure when I am kinda down sometimes. but other than that, I just love the sweet, cold texture in my mouth! wee~
I - inspire. To inspire and be inspired everyday.

J - Jesus. Of all the J's in my life, this is the one I love most. If you don't know, HE loves you too as much as HE loves me

K - kuih. I actually loves kuihs. especially malay kuihs and nyonya kuih. Reminds of the kampung though I live in the city.

L - Love. the word that I am beginning to discover. Agape, Philea,Storge and Eros. the word that makes the world go round. This world needs some love. Oh, let me share some of mine. =)

M - Music. The thing that also makes the world go round. They are addictive like drugs, poisonous like venom but sometimes they heal our longing souls. I love hearing to worship songs and love songs coz they are meaningful unlike rock songs which makes me headache. oh! is that why they keep banging their heads?!

N - nuts. I kinda love every nuts. Peanuts, macadamia nuts, hazelnuts, and pistachios. Except coconut.
O - Oprah? nope. I can't think of anything starting with O. Otak-otak maybe. but I think I am just hungry now.hehe..

P - Picture. I am learning to capture every memories I have with my loved ones. The only thing that I can bring to the future from the past. They are priceless.

Q - Quiet. This word would describe me the most if you sees me. It makes me think and observe my surroundings. I am more to a listener rather than the one talking. I love hearing stories. (O.O)

R - Rain. I love the rain. It somewhat reminds me that God is listening to me when I am down, that He will wash away all my troubles, my hurt and my tears. Then after the rain, I will feel rejuvenated with the smell of the fresh air, a new life.

S - silly. Oh, I am silly sometimes if not most of the time. I would ask silly questions that sometimes irritate people. yerr..
S - smile. I smile every time. With a smile, it brings happiness to this world . I want to share this happiness. =D

T - Thank you. The word that taught me to be grateful for everything that was given to me and not to take granted of it.

U - ultraman ? i can't think of any at this moment. But ultraman was my childhood hero. We just love watching how silly it tries to fight the monster but at the end, the whole city will be destroyed because of him. haha..
V - ?

W - World. The place I am currently living in. Hope to get a better world. But I guessed it is ending before it even gets better. oh dear...
W - wok. My surname ,which is really rare. I guessed my ancestor was a great cook. You never know.
X - X-ray. I did an x-ray before on my teeth. It looked weird.
Y - You. the person God create besides me. So that I won't be so lonely here in this world. =)
Z - zzzz. The time to take a rest after a long day. The time I begin my journey to another world. Where the impossibles becomes a reality.

That's me. =)

I have in my hands two boxes,
Which God gave me to hold.
He said, 'Put all your sorrows in the black box,
And all your joys in the gold.'

I heeded His words, and in the two boxes,
Both my joys and sorrows I stored,
But though the gold became heavier each day,
The black was as light as before.

With curiosity, I opened the black,
I wanted to find out why,
And I saw, in the base of the box, a hole,
Which my sorrows had fallen out by.

I showed the hole to God, and mused,
'I wonder where my sorrows could be!'
He smiled a gentle smile and said,
'My child, they're all here with me..'

I asked God, why He gave me the boxes,
Why the gold and the black with the hole?
'My child, the gold is for you to count your blessings,
The black is for you to let go'

sometimes, I just don't understand it.
but I will just follow and try to obey them. Maybe they know what is best for me.
But it is just hard.
I will let my excitement go this time. Again. Let them decide.
I will just be the good child and follow.

God,
help me. forgive me for every anger I have caused. I am sorry for not obeying them. Heal any wounds and hurts. I love them so so much. I am disappointed at myself.

The tears I shed is not because of them, but the disappointment in me, myself. I am trying very hard. But it seems like I have failed even more.

sigh...

When it comes to jigsaw puzzle, we all know that to enjoy a satisfying outcome you need all the pieces. In many ways, life is like that. We spend our days putting it together, hoping to create a complete picture out of all the scattered parts.

Yet sometimes, it seems like a piece is missing. Perhaps we've been pursuing the wrong pieces to the puzzle.
If something is missing in your life, remember that God is the only ONE who can fully and abundantly satisfy you. Let HIM complete the picture of your LIFE.

The God-shaped void within our heart
Cannot be filled by treasure
It's only God who satisfies
In ways we cannot measure

I try to tell myself over and over again that I have done my best, and I need to thank God for my results.
3.67 with 2As and 2B+

But if you want me to be honest,
deep within my heart,
I still wonder why didn't I get the A for my Business paper. Haven't I done enough to make colourful notes for me to remember? Haven't I memorize enough for those facts to clog my brains?

I just wished I have done a little bit better. Maybe a slight mistakes here and there. Maybe I am just over confident. I guessed so.

I am sorry Lord, if I am writing these now. I just wished I could have gotten 3 As. I don't know. it won't happen.
But whatever it is, I am really thankful O God for Maths. I have never expected it. It is truly by your grace! Thank you, O God!
and thank you for the good results my dear fellow classmates got! I am so happy for them!

Oh well God, you know what is best for me, you know my future well. I am just gonna trust you and hold you tight that I will not fall away. Help me to walk in your will, O God.
I praise you for today, for everything. I just hope that I did not fail you..

Dear friend,
I hope that you will forgive me for what I did.
I am sorry.
I have caused the deep hole in your heart.
A hole that can't be covered any more,
A pain that can't be erased,
I feel the pain too, you know.

But my dear friend,
Let me tell you this,
I will always be there for you, no matter what happens.
I hope I will be better next time.
I hope THIS will be forgotten.
For our friendship is important to me.
I want you to be happy,
and happy forever.

I pray that God will lead you and guide you
May His face shine upon you.
Let His hands hold you where ever you go.
Hold Him tight because He loves you more.

Take care, my dear friend.

Dear Daddy,

I thank you that you have shown us what true LOVE really means.

Daddy, I thank you that I am so blessed with many great friends that I can share this LOVE today. Friends whom I can trust and cherish forever, friends that makes sure that I can smile everyday, friends that have helped me through difficult times and friends that I can lean on no matter what tomorrow holds.They are one of life's greatest gift that I can never say thank you enough. Because of them I can say that my life is full of adventure. Its been a roller coaster ride. and I had a whole great time. I love them so much. Thanks ,Daddy for them.


I also want to thank you for my dearest family. For through them, I can see Your LOVE that pours out unconditionally everyday to make sure that I feel belonged in this world. Thank you for daddy and mummy who have brought me up with this LOVE. Without them, I don't know what would this word, L.O.V.E really means. They are the best and I can never exchange them with anything in this world. I love them so so much. Thanks, Daddy that I have a great family.

And most of all, thank you Daddy for the greatest LOVE of all, your son Jesus. He is the true meaning of LOVE. Thank you for sacrificing Your one and only Son so that we could know what LOVE means. He is the true meaning of Valentine. and You are my Valentine.

and therefore,this is the meaning of LOVE :

1 Corinthians 13:4–8a
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails ...